Finding healing for my battered warrior of a soul.

                                                 photo credits to QOS Just a quick hello and assurance that I am indeed still alive. hehe I have become shamelessly obsessed with the series- Queen of the South and I am frustrated because my download on the season 5 has stopped at 50%...maybe for now I'll have to satisfy my thirst (pun intended) with pretty pictures from Alice Braga on instagram. I’ve always been strangely drawn to actresses with an unusual kind of beauty and Alice’s smile gets me every time. She is gorgeous without having to look like a boring mannequin and I love her as Teresa Mendoza, especially because of her Oh-no-you-did-not-just-say-that-moments. Now if only my download would resume again…

"It was the cruelest torture I could imagine"- Esther (Orphan) Bullying in any form is devastating, and feels like the end of the world. It can destroy you in seconds. For years, I was bullied by a co-worker, the main reason why I had to leave my previous job. Some people are just an embarrassing excuse for an existence and have no business expressing their inconsistent and therefore irrelevant accusations. Obsess much??? At first, I felt awful about such commentary not understanding what would motivate a person to put someone down just because they think they are powerful. I realized it wasn't about me being "sensitive", it was about some people being unhappy and insecure. So unhappy that she has to go to great lengths to insult someone consistently.   And she usually does when her pea sized brain finds something else to pick on. I tried to deal with it by sleeping it off, I struggled with eating disorders, and causing physical pain to myself, all in the hopes ...

"How are you going to spend your life?" — "I'm not sure. But I do know I'm going to live every minute of it." Soul (2020)                                                                                                                               photo by CBPH Overwhelmed with the response on the last post, I questioned if I had made the right decision in posting about it. My girlfriend Maria Villa, told me that she loved this blog idea and I have been asked by another friend [Ino dela Cruz] to update them whenever I posted a new blog which again made me blush because well, let’s face it, what do I really know about blogging. I started this blog so that we can all...

  Life just gets in the way sometimes. I've been reflecting on where life has brought me and how worth it all the traumatic breakdowns and sleepless nights have been. There are mornings when you don't wake up on the wrong side of the bed, but on the wrong side of existence. Those are the mornings when the only option is to seek refuge in the warmth and darkness under your sheets. And when absolutely anything verbal thrown at you can quickly turn from comforting to soul-shattering. I realized how lost I had been in the past two and a half years, something that failed to register for the longest time, and it's such a relief to be able to breathe out after all this time and energy spent on all things negative.  I guess times have changed, it is when you reflect on all things questionable in your life and as a turning point for everything in desperate need for a change. My friends call it my nesting period. I call it my "emotional rubble" clearing. It is the kind of t...